Friday, June 28, 2013

why you're single.

First, read this:

“You’re single because you’re single. It’s not because you texted too much or too little or waited 33 minutes to respond because he took 23. It’s not because you met up with your ex that night at 5 a.m. that no one knows about, or because you kissed another boy after a date with a loser.
You’re not single because you spit food on that date or tripped coming out the the movie theatre. You’re not single because you hurt your first boyfriend really badly when you were 15 or because you have yet, to this day, to apologize. It’s not because you were secretly jealous when your friend got a boyfriend or that a guy you dated for two months now has a really cute girlfriend and looks really happy. And you’re happy for him. But still ill that he found someone before you.
You’re not single because you slept with your ex boyfriend. You’re not single because half the world found out when you didn’t even want to remember it yourself. You’re not single because you think the guy your friend wants to hook you up with is ugly or not tall enough. It’s not because you’re not willing to put up with someone who doesn’t brush their teeth on a regular basis.
You’re not single because your standards are too high. Good for you for having standards. It’s not because you didn’t like that really, really good guy who wanted to take you on a date and you just weren’t feeling it. And it’s not because you like to wear pajama pants as soon as you get home and wash all the makeup off your face. You’re not single because you didn’t learn enough from the past or would rather chill on a Friday night with your blanket and a cold beer than shower, get ready, and go out. You’re not single because something is wrong with you.
You are single because you are single. It’s really as simple as that. You haven’t made the connection with another heart yet. You can get dolled up, dress cute, cut your hair, dye your hair, tweeze your eyebrows, put on lipstick and you may still. be. single. You can go out to a bar hoping to meet the love of your life and not find a damn one in the place attractive. And it’s going to remain that way until it’s time for you to find one. Stop hoping for it. Start living the life that you do have instead of wishing for things that you don’t have. There will come a time you’ll meet a boy and you’ll have to give up some of this single freedom you currently have. Start being more thankful. Start doing that now.
-Why You’re Single by Amanda Crute

So, I stumbled across this on tumblr the other day. I know a few people who need this, myself included, and other people are usually a lot better at putting things into words than I am. You are single because you are single, it really is as simple as that. Yes, maybe the planets need to align before that one guy out of the millions you've met so far will actually be someone special.
My favorite part is when it says to start living the life that you do have instead of wishing for what you don't. My goodness, I think that is my new motto. I should get it tattoo'd somewhere. Just kidding. Kind of...

Monday, June 24, 2013

it speaks to me.

"...But I sold you for a cigarette
does that make you wanna love me less?
And if I don't believe,
What does that mean?
And when I die alone,
Who will eat my soul?"

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

quarter-life crisis

So, as I've mentioned, I just graduated from college. It's a day I never thought would come and I was so excited for it. But no one told me the panic I'd feel once I was done. Nope, it was just "here's your degree. Good job. Now go find your career." So here I am now with a Bachelor's Degree and a teaching license and I've got to start thinking about what I want to do now. 
Finding a job is absolutely stressful. We all know this. And it's especially stressful when it's your CAREER you're trying to find. So I've been looking for a teaching job and so far, no luck. At all. I'm also trying to move to Salt Lake and that's terrifying in itself. I kinda feel like I've just been thrown into this whole new part of my life and I'm just blindly trying to find my way through and hope to god I don't fall flat on my face.

I have dubbed this part of my life to be my quarter-life crisis. Which is a real thing, might I add.

"Your twenties can be a difficult time. It is generally a time of transition, where nothing is fully established. You may have an overwhelming amount of decisions to make but limited opportunities, and you may feel like you are struggling to make it in the 'real world' with the anxieties of careers, relationships and debt." {}

You know how when people go through a mid-life crisis they might buy some crazy new vehicle or go on a huge trip or something? I feel like I'm going through that. Some of my decisions lately have been a bit impulsive, I feel like I'm just trying to create my own identity in a way, or something like that. And maybe it's my way of balancing out my panic and stress to do some things with an "i don't give a shit" attitude.

So first I did this...

Then I was like, "hey let's do that again."

And then, I was like.. Hey, this is a good idea...

So now that I'm tattoo'd and chopped off my hair maybe I'll figure the rest of it out?

I wish it were that easy.

Saturday, June 15, 2013

a new chapter

Hello blogging world!

I'm Chelsey.

 (that's me)

I am a 23 year old, recent college grad living in Provo (yuck), Utah. I had a really sad old blog that I attempted to keep up on through my young, naive college years. It was fun while it lasted.

This last year I have gone through a lot of changes and I'm definitely starting a new chapter in my life... you know, being done with school and all. So I'm really just attempting to get through my 20's with out totally effing it up.

I honestly don't know what this blog will really be. I think it'll just be a random collection of my life. I like to take a lot of pictures, I listen to really good music, I love books, I tend to swear quite a bit, and I think I'm smart and have a lot of epiphanies about life. So that's probably what this thing will be.

I also am going through a quarter-life crisis so that might over take this blog sometimes too.

Anyway, lets get this shiz going. I'm excited!